When God speaks I listen.... Praying the person God wants to read this finds it...... After arguing with God all week about how I can't talk about it This week my little brother has been on my heart... I even texted him at 3am one morning. I love my brothers. My youngest brother Cameron has been through more than most his age and my heart breaks for him often. What I admire most about him is his love for others, the quietness of his soul, and kindness to all. Almost 5 years ago by brother's life along with many others changed forever. Tammy was beautiful and on the outside seem to have it all.... Her family loved her, her friends loved her, and my brother loved her... I will never forget the call... I was very pregnant with Harrison... Tammy took her own life. I know every day my brother struggles with the "why questions," "I should have," and "I miss her." Being the older sister I want to take this hurt from him... I can't, but God can. Suicide is all around us! I'M HERE TO SAY YOUR LIFE MATTERS! REGARDLESS OF WHAT YOU THINK IT ISN'T TRUE! YOUR LIFE MATTERS! GOD HAS A PLAN FOR YOUR LIFE! YOU MAY NOT UNDERSTAND IT, BUT TRUSTING IT WILL SET YOU FREE! YOUR LIFE MATTERS! GOD LOVES YOU, OTHERS LOVE YOU SO LOVE YOURSELF AND IF YOU NEED HELP REACH OUT! I have struggled with depression in my life as has many others. Don't let depression win! Reaching out and asking for help isn't a weakness its a strength! It's time to take care of yourself and ask for help! You are worth it! Proverbs 3:5Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. When my world shakes Your love remains unshaken So constant, so perfect, unwavering When my world falls Your love remains unfailing So constant, so perfect, unwavering So constant, so perfect, unwavering
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Harrison and Mae have been learning how to work hard while being ornery with Uncle Kyle. Very thankful for Michele and Kyle this week... They have helped with the kids so they can come see Madison and I this weekend. Madison spent the afternoon unloading the drawers that I put Harrison and Mae's clothes in.... I guess she is practicing "I'm the baby of the family!" Madison and I are ready for the weekend! Muffy and I loaded our little red wagon with all the thirty-one bags and delivered them to Cardinal Glennon. As you can see by the picture the only thing Madison did was laugh at me! Madison was beyond thrilled to deliver the bags! We prayed over them before dropping them off! Thank you to all who donated items or money for the bags! Give, and it will be given to you. Good measure, pressed down, shaken together, running over, will be put into your lap. For with the measure you use it will be measured back to you.” Luke 6:38 What is your new, bold, beautiful goal for the new season? In one week Harrison and Mae will have their 6 month bone marrow biopsy. We know they have bone marrow suppression and pray daily it doesn't turn into MDS or MDS/Monosomy 7. Since Madison's diagnosis Harrison and Mae have had CBCs (blood drawn to check blood levels) every two weeks. In addition, every 6 months they will have a bone marrow biopsy. The doctors at Cardinal Glennon have been amazing and love our kids and want to be proactive and cautious. Although, we appreciate that fear seems to creep in every time a test is done. This wooden plaque was given to me yesterday and I've looked at it several times today. Satan wants fear of "things, events, relationships" to overcome us, paralyze us, and rule our lives. However, God says, "Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be afraid, for I am your God. I will strengthen you; I will help you; I will hold on to you with My righteous hand." - Isaiah 41:10 Fear is mentioned several times in the bible. God knows we struggle with fear and anxiety. The question is will we turn those over to God or hang on to them? God gives us all choices! My choice was to spend the day in prayer and turn over this fear! My choice was to ask God to lay a healing hand on Harrison and Mae. My choice was to trust God and his path for our family. We all have the choice. Write down a fear you are currently struggling with and ask for God's presence and then give him the fear. Here is a quick reference for more bible verses on fear... Although, I enjoy the Internet getting into your bible is important. http://www.openbible.info/topics/fear_and_anxiety Madison is a constant reminder of God's grace and love. Another great day minus a few teething issues! God said: "Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Matthew 18:3 A little Wizard of Oz Remix! A long day at clinic 6 hours to be exact and our dear Fallon was there even longer! Madison is doing awesome! Her platelet count was 276,000 today the highest any of my kids have EVER been! Her CBC looked like a typical 15 month old! God is Good! Lots of blood drawn today for an array of things and will get the results on Thursday. A couple of days ago God spoke to me about the concept and meaning of "Be Still." Today a package came in the mail from a dear friend! This journal I'm sure was already in the mail when I posted! I love when God continues to speak to us on a certain concept! All of the amazing gift bags for moms were delivered to me tonight by Nicolette! Of course, poor Nic wasn't prepared for the tears that fell when I was hugging her! Nic and I have seen each other through many different seasons in life and tonight I needed to see her more than she'll ever know. My challenge for you tonight is to call a friend you grew up with- no text- no email- an old fashioned phone call! Trust me regardless of the years that have passed nothing is like a good conversation with an old friend---- (sorry Nic you were the one that said were old.) Kids are already enjoying the basement (hole)! Ryan is teaching them all about work ethic and enjoying your job! Special thank you to all who have helped Ryan already! Lots to be done before Muffy can come home.... I guess it's a good thing she can't head home till November. Aunt Kathy has made it her mission to get Madison to eat and drink!!! Today her dream came true or maybe Madison's.... Madison ate and loved homemade biscuits and gravy and also loved her homemade vanilla shake! I think Aunt Kathy is good at spoiling.... US! I went to heaven today.... Well, grocery heaven that is! By far the coolest place with no people ever!!!! A must see and shop the next time your in St.Louis!!!! I must add taking a selfie at the age of 31.9 in front of a grocery store sign makes you OLD! |
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