Day 159: Huge Mistake!

Madison's med list is intense as I have shared several times. I'm still unsure on how I made the mistake I did this morning, but I did. Madison is suppose to get 30ml of cyclosporine every 12 hours. The way the med comes I throw away 120 mls of extra cyclosporine after every dose. This morning I managed to hook up the med to the wrong pump resulting in her getting 150ml of cyclosporine..... Long story short I rushed her to the emergency room around 11:30am. They have admitted her for overnight observation, but as of now is acting like normal Madison (Thank you God).

I, of course; have spent the afternoon in tears and completely upset that I made this mistake! I could make 100 excuses, but the reality is I'm responsible for Madison and any med error is my fault. The responsibility it takes to care for Madison is great and I know that! Praying this is my first and last mistake while caring for Madison medically.

Madison has been enjoying herself this evening. I've decided that although she is like me her go with the flow attitude comes from Ryan! I asked Madison, "Do you want to see Elsa?" She of course took off down the hallway. When she seen Elsa she reached for her hand......

God has big plans for these girls! You can feel God's love and presence when they are together! What they share some will never understand. The girls played and of course my heart melted! Madison does love other people and kids!

Tonight I'm embracing God's divine interruption! Apparently, my plans to shop and bake today with the kids wasn't what God wanted.... I did find someone's wallet today in the hospital parking lot while taking Madison in! The security guard seemed surprised I turned it in.... Breaks my heart someone would even consider not turning it in.... Either way the owner now has it. 

Please pray Madison has no complications while the cyclosporine gets out of her system!