It seems like just yesterday that tragedy hit and Payge went to be with Jesus. The past year has been difficult for her family and friends and even at times struggling to move forward.
This week on my way to EIU for class my heart felt heavy and tears rolled down my face. Once arriving on campus a butterfly landed on the car. The grief and loss that has been experienced the last year has brought me to my knees numerous times. My prayer is God continues to provide peace and guidance to Payge's parents, siblings, and Cameron. The memorial race today was amazing and its truly amazing to see the love and support that surrounds Payge's family and friends.
Last year's post....
With a heavy heart I write this post...
Payge and her entire family spent the day at the golf course yesterday helping with Madison's benefit (golf scramble). To say Payge and her family have servants hearts would be an understatement. Mae and I spent a couple of hours visiting until we had to get home to Madison.
Payge and Cameron (little brother) began dating at the beginning of summer. Payge was always smiling, had a caring spirit, and we all immediately fell in love with her. Just last week she came over to my parents house and the kids and I were there and she started helping with dishes! I looked at mom and said , "We are keeping her!"
In less than 1 second yesterday life changed! Everyone was heading home from a day of love and laughter to share in more at a wedding reception.
Those who loved Payge did everything they humanly could to save her life.
We all ask, "Why them, why now, why us?" God knows all of those answers! Ryan and I don't know the answers! Our hearts ache, but we trust the God that has all the answers! We trust that God is good, we have hope in the days ahead, and we have faith that Payge is with God in heaven.
Please pray for the Donaldson family! God brought our families together and he alone knows what they need during this time.
"You will never have this day with your children again. Tomorrow they will be a little bigger then they are today. This day is a gift. Breathe and notice. Smell and touch them; study their faces and little feet and pay attention. Relish the charms of the present. Enjoy today mama. It will be over before you know it" -Jen Hatmaker
We all started school this week! The kids think it's pretty awesome I've had homework already!
God willing Madison will enjoy preschool in a school setting all year. We are very blessed with educators who keep us informed on illnesses, clean the rooms with purpose, and want Madison in the classroom as much as possible. In addition, Madison is doing great! She has grown so much the last six months both physically and emotionally. Ryan and I are excited about the journey ahead.
We wrapped up our first week back to school with a Cardinal's game! Thank you Friends of Kids with Cancer for the tickets! We all enjoyed the game, the weather was perfect, and the popcorn was amazing!
To the friend that battles depression, to the friend who fights daily for their spouse, to the friend loving a child through an illness or disease, to the friend who feels alone...
God's grace and love can carry you...Will you let him? One of the most difficult things in life is to give God complete control. God doesn't want you to do your life alone.
We have enjoyed our summer vacation! Swimming, mini-trips, weddings, moving our family and friends, addition to our family (new cousin), play dates, etc. we have enjoyed every second! As we wrap up the last full week of summer break; (the kiddos and I all start next week) I found myself a little sad. We've all been told how fast time goes, but WOW I wasn't expecting it to go this fast! With Harrison going into 1st grade, Mae in kindergarten, and Madison in preschool... I'm sad! Where are the days going? Am I being the child of God, wife, and mother God has called me to be?
I ran across a sign today that read, "If you want to change the world, go home and love your family. -Mother Teresa" my heart felt heavy that I; 1. Read it again 2. Bought the sign! Serving others is one thing I enjoy and genuinely love to do; however Mother Teresa's quote is so important! It is vital we evaluate where we are investing our time and energy! I struggle with boundaries and balance; do you? As the school year begins, knowing one's family and personal goals will help guide one's time. As I said above, "Where does time go?"
Wishing all of you a blessed 2017-2018 school year!