Ending the month of November
It seems time goes faster with each passing day. By the end of the week we will be in the month of December. We are enjoying being HOME!!!! Last year we spent the holidays in St.Louis and we are beyond thrilled to be home! We have been decorating the house for the last week! We have enjoyed every moment! We will be decorating our family Christmas tree mid-week.
We enjoyed our week with family and friends! Many memories and celebrations! We got a little antsy at home and did take Madison bowling and to Steak N' Shake! She had a blast!
Praying for no illnesses this week. We had a wonderful week, but anytime we are out of the house we risk Madison getting sick. Madison's week will be filled with therapy and plenty of rest! Also, her glasses should be in by the end of the week.
Harrison will be celebrating his 6th birthday on Tuesday!! We are beyond blessed to have this little guy in our lives! We started celebrating on Saturday and will continue until Wednesday!
Having a thankful heart ❤️
Happy Thanksgiving! One thing I pray daily for is that Ryan, the kids, and I have a thankful heart.
Having a thankful heart in all circumstances that come our way! The Bible verse
1 Thessalonians 5:18 states, "Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you." I recite this verse often during my day for I know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him (Romans 8:28).
One example of many this week... Our week has been filled with things breaking- Sunday our vacuum blew up, Monday our dishwasher broke, and Tuesday a shelf. A repair man came to the house yesterday to look at the dishwasher (still looking for a part), but the God thing happened when he called me that evening asking for the exact wording on a sign above our door- "Until God opens the next door, Praise him in the hallway." I don't know what is going on in his life, but I do know God needed him to see it! I shared briefly that it isn't easy waiting in a hallway and he agreed.
Regardless of what isn't going "right" in your eyes always pray for a thankful heart.... Remember God's plan is always better than our own.
Happy Thanksgiving and spend some time in prayer of thanksgiving today❤️
Little Madison is getting eye glasses
A long week for the Lash crew!
We had a long genetic counseling meeting on Wednesday and Cardinal Glennon on Thursday.
It has been several months since Madison just wanted to be held in clinic... The long three hour ophthalmology appointment, eye dialation, and rhino virus resulted in exhaustion!
Madison will be getting glasses-will be sized for them tomorrow.
We got out this morning (tried to get groceries before holiday rush hits) unfortunately, the stores were all ready busy. Madison's body is having a difficult time building immunity and seems to always have an upper respiratory infection. We have paused her vaccines in hopes that helps. In addition, our lock down life will begin until flu season passes.
We are beyond excited about being home this holiday season! Ryan, the kids, and I have tackled getting our outdoor lights up this week since it was so warm. As the colder temps arrived this afternoon the kids and I started getting the inside of the house decorated. Excitement is filling our home!
Have a wonderful weekend and pick up the phone this weekend to tell someone thank you❤️
Madison's Bear Hug Adventure!
Madison's Bear Hug trip! The kids waited for this trip for almost a year and it was worth the wait❤️
Thank you to the organization Bear Necessities for giving us this amazing adventure weekend! This organization grants "hugs" to children who live in the state of Illinois 0-19 years who have been treated for pediatric cancer. http://www.bearnecessities.org/bear-hugs/
Our weekend involved staying in a beautiful cabin, indoor water park, Starved Rock hike, and most of all time with the kids ❤️ My parents and brother Mitch and sister-in-law Skyler came up on Saturday to celebrate Madison's journey❤️ We missed greatly my brother Cameron and brother Kyle, sister-in-law Michelle, and niece Brooklynn.
An absolutely perfect "Hug" for Madison! She is our little fish and loved every part of the weekend❤️❤️
Thank you God for blessing our family❤️
I just finished my second book for the month, "Uninvited." I started the book a couple of months ago and didn't like it at all! A fellow friend was reading the book and loved it so I thought I would pick it up again.... It didn't take me long at all to find out why I didn't like it! It hit my heart directly! Lets just say by the last chapter I was crying... through the entire thing!
I shared with Ryan Sunday morning the effect the book had on me. I reminded him of events that took place in my life (we've been together for 16 years so he has been present for most of them). Events that I hadn't even thought about in years came to the surface. Ryan (processing) said nothing... Feeling like a complete crazed person I called a dear friend and shared with her my dilemma!
So much of my life I've been trying to prove people wrong. Wow to see that typed out! I wish I could delete those words, but I can't! This book revealed to me how much weight people's negative words and thoughts have on me! I hear way more positive than negative, but those negative words stick like glue!
One example, I shared with Ryan--- My senior year of high school I wanted to go to SIUE! I knew that is where God wanted me and I was going! I was the average student. I was horrible at standardized test, but I tried! I sat in the guidance counselor's office excited about college and the next stage in my life. When I heard the words, "You won't make it into SIUE and if you do you won't last" hit me like a ton of bricks. "The only way you'll get in to SIUE is if I call." Those words stuck like glue and I was determined to prove them wrong! I'm not going to cloat in my successes at SIUE because honestly without the help God sent my way I wouldn't have done as well as I did. My dear Angella read almost every paper I wrote and taught me how to navigate the world of grammar, my dear Jamie and I spent hours making flash cards for tests! I studied, asked for help, and grew.
The drive to prove that I was enough consumed me! Unfortunately, 90% of the time I would end up hurt. It became a vicious cycle of crazy-proving I was a good mom, proving I was a good friend, proving I was a good wife, proving I was a good Christian, proving I was enough! It saddens me that we live in a world that judging others and beating ourselves up is the norm! It's the norm to feel like we don't measure up..., but what are we even measuring? Who is the one measuring? What matters and what doesn't?
After our conversation Sunday morning we never talked about it again... Until he sent me this text message today- "So I've been thinking a lot about what you said Sunday morning. You said that you've spent much time proving to people that your a good person, capable of reaching any goals, and just worthy of acceptance. I believe that God stripped everything down around you to a small confined space to show you that Lindsay Lash is ENOUGH just the way you are. Then God said, "I'm going to show you how your enough." I will speak my words through you and you will share them without seeing or being with anyone. Just you alone are enough. I've created you!" ~Ryan
After reading the text tears fell. I know to some I'm not good enough, BUT I'm tired of proving myself! I'm not perfect, but honestly I don't want to be! What I want is to be the best version of me! The me that is good enough for God!
Challenge of the week: Write "I'm Enough" on a post-it and place in your car❤️