After several tears and a 2 hour nap with the girls I think I can write about our day.
A phone call this morning changed our entire day. A SSM nurse was calling to let me know she was coming out to retrain me on administering meds since I made an error a week ago. A complete mess I started crying. Why? Simply because I already know I made a mistake. I was getting meds lined out for Danielle so the kids and I could purchase hams for several families for Christmas. I made a mistake and hooked up the wrong pump. After several tears the nurse arrived. I like always was completely open and honest about what happened.... She told me she felt I was doing a great job and simply made a mistake. Also, she shared I wasn't under investigation she felt everyone was covering bases. I feel like the devil literally wants me to end 2015 screaming! He wants me to be angry, overwhelmed, and drowning in the situation we are in! The devil won my morning then thankful God gave me rest!
I spoke to soon last night in saying we would be home next week. The truth is I'm beyond ready to be home. I need support and help with the kids. Unfortunately, Ryan has tried (late nights and even took off from work) to finish the house. When Ryan finishes the house we will set the date to be home. As hard as he is trying to not create dust in finishing up there is dust. Dust is very dangerous for Madison so we have to keep focusing on that. If we rush getting home and dust hasn't settled we will be back in the hospital. Thank you to all who have shown up to help Ryan we appreciate you. I wish doing home improvements wouldn't have been in our cards for 2015, but were necessary for Madison's health.
2015 has been humbling. We have seen, felt, and experienced so many things. Every day was a new day. New blessings, new trials, and more ways God shined his light in and around us. God has changed us as Christians, people, and parents this year. We are humbled by God's grace, love, and strength. 2015 you will be a year we remember forever and a year that is well with our souls.