A few months before Madison was diagnosed I attended a Fred Pryor, "Time Mangememt class".
The class wasn't for me. A long day of listening to ways you can make the most of your time. I personally was a pro at conquering a to-do list, prioritizing my to-do list, living by a to-do list, and the one thing I needed had nothing to do with a to-do list!
I didn't need any ideas on how to push others out of my office so I could be more productive, I didn't need to buy a new calendar, and I didn't need to write out hour by hour what I was going to do each day! Why? I was already too productive, too time obsessed, and too busy!
I needed taught how to waste time! I needed to waste time in conversation with NO where to go, I needed to waste time in my pjs with the kids, I needed to waste time holding my babies, and I needed to waste a whole lot of time being! Unfortunately, the only thing that could wipe out my entire calendar of to-do was a sick little baby named Madison!
I can't even tell you the number of times I would show up to a meeting, conversation, or even answer a phone call and by the end have more "things" to do! A disease that kept spreading! The sick feeling if I didn't do it than no one would!
All those "things" that in the big picture mean nothing. The people pleasing "things" mean nothing!
The last year I've been wasting time to some! I'm fine and will gladly take the title "living life!"
The time I've been wasting has allowed for God's riches to consume me! Relationships that are filled with coffee dates, two hour conversations on the phone, nights sitting outside, and investment!
The relationships that were based on me pleasing, doing, etc. are very minimal. God has shown, used, and blessed me in the ability to forgive. The ability to love all, but not let negative blow out his light in me.
I get life is busy- I still clean, fold laundry, and keep our house moving, but I'm intentional about wasting time being! God needs quiet, unplanned time with you to refuel your life so your light can shine❤️